radical has to be the Christian’s new normal, that radical isn’t radical but the regular to the disciple of ChristAnd I keep reading about her trip to Haiti, the boys, the Bibles, the thirsty land. I've heard of this thirsty land before. One of our pastors took his family there to live for a while, to bring living water to this dry and thirsty land, a land of thanks-givers who have nothing compared to us, and yet everything.
And her words cut me right through. No, the Holy Spirit cuts through the deception, the self-serving, the thick skin that I put on to keep from hurting. And I see myself a little more clearly, and I don't like what I see. I could turn away, forgetting what I look like. But I keep reading.
...and who is ready to have less so we all have something, or do we all want everything so most get nothing?And I know how I hold back from giving of myself. I hear myself saying, "I want to be there. I want to get for a while."
We’ve got all of God. Why not share the rest?
Or maybe we don’t — because we don’t really have Him at all?
I am so tired of plowing and sowing, plowing and sowing, plowing and sowing...and just when it looks like there might be a harvest, another pastor leaves from shame or sheer exhaustion. We have seen seven come, six go, and finally we left. Tired, hungry, wounded...and I no longer blame any of those who have gone before, over the 27+ years, while we stayed, plowing and sowing, plowing and sowing. When comes the rejoicing? When comes the carrying the sheaves?
And I just want to sit a while. I am thirsty now, and want to soak it up from others for a while. I want to be there.
And we were asked to be here again. To have meetings once a week. No, I say. I want. I want to be there. Once or twice a month will still give me time to be there without here being too inconvenient.
And there is thirst.
And I read on...
I read about the boy begging for food or drink and receiving the Bread of Life and his huge grin.
And I know what it is about, and what it is about is not me.
In tears, I cry "uncle!" Tell him we will do it here, in our home. Yes. Every week, if that is what is wanted, needed. I give.
I have been thirsty. And in my thirst, I've kept the water for myself, and the fountain has stopped.
When I give again, it is promised that my water will turn into a well for those around me in need.
John 4:13-1413 Jesus answered, "Everyone who drinks this water will be thirsty again, 14 but whoever drinks the water I give him will never thirst. Indeed, the water I give him will become in him a spring of water welling up to eternal life."